BOOO Halloween

so i haven't blogged in a while. Halloween weekend was pretty weak. haha. was around the same people. ter and i had so many things to do saturday night that we ended up doing nothing. hahaha. we were about to go to monster massive until we had some sour diesels, and that left us stuck haha. watched american gangster, everyone go watch it in theaters, Frank is cut throat. short ass blog cause i feel pretty shitty. i'll do a legit one later

cigs and coffee

its only 10:30 and im tired already. i woke up tired. i've been spending the last 3 days studying, at least 3 hours straight. its paying off so far cause i got a B on my chem midterm. haha finally right. my bio midterm is stressing me out, im so nervous. i've never really felt nervous before a test. well theres a first for everything. i just found out theres no classes offered during winter intersession for me to take so im going boarding all winter. haha. season pass here i come. on a nice note, talking to my friends back in moval calms me down. which is really nice. midterm is at 1 so i got a good amount of time to study. im going to knock out right after lab haha. damn i have lab. this will all pay off soon. not soon enough i think sometimes, but victory is going to taste so sweet.

I Didn't say i was powerful, i said i was a wizard

what a day today was. i woke up at 4am to a tree crashing. it got uprooted. im talking like a big ass 20-30ft. tree. crazy. it blocked the entire street. haha i thought to myself that i couldn't go to school cause a tree blocked my street. I was at school from 7:30-5:30. 1 midterm down 1 to go on wednesday. i have so much studying to do its wild. benh steph and i went to starbucks from 8-12midnight. most of the time i was studying, except for when benh caught me on myspace. ahah. today i went to go eat thai food with euni with is always a good treat. pretty productive day i might say.

off to bed. long day of studying ahead of me. adios

Bandana on the right

all weekend long i was with : Ter Link Rommel Jan Jeff and Lainie. what i like to call good company. we just chilled at jans house doing what we always do. good conversations, jan pulling the "W" card on rommel. Raffy and marvin were there day 1 which was pretty funny.haha jen and i were waiting for jan to laugh with us, but it never came. watched 30 days of Night, decent movie. everyone was getting MINGED haha. it was chilled. almost went to a costume party but i stayed at jan with link. haha jeff and lainie came back. all good. ate cold pizza, and a big ass bag of trail mix.

currently waiting for my study group at the library at school. wtf am i do here? damn school is getting to me. 2 mid terms this week plus my open discovery lab. im already looking forward to the next weekend to be with good company.

See you in the shallows

so im at starbucks in brea studying with raffy, benh, and steph d. pretty productive night as i made dinner for my roomies then came out here at 8:30. its been straight studying except that raffy keeps trying to talk to me (LOL JK RAFFY!). its been awhile since a cig break but they are about to close up so im waiting for that.

Talked with marites over AIM since i am on corner bakery's wifi. it was a nice talk. kinda touched the heart. made me miss a lot of things. sucks we have to grow older. I miss our annual family winter trips the most, where we would just go snowboard for days on ends. the drive there was half the fun as it was a bonding experience for all of us. we grew closer and closer ever mile, every gas station stop, each breakfast, lunch, and dinner. trips always consisted of me, marites, vadd, chay, and john. i guess with me being far away from them, i feel like i've lost that connection. its just an illusion cause its always there. theres nothing that could break what we all have together. The trips are just on standby while i finish school, marites and vadd get settled with life. Chay just started RCC and i know he is doing good, which makes me proud of him even more. John is about to become the next iron chef. I've never been so proud of those two in my life. Once we all get our lives together, where we want to be at, our trips will resume. Family is always there behind me no matter how far i am. i love that. I can only hope that once we are older, we can include my little cousins kristine, martha, and edward on our trips. The trips will be annual once again, spending those 7 or so days together suck in a car/cabin, nothing but quality time and love for one another. i can't wait for it.

She's Hearing Voices

so last night i took the marc special, double the dosage of Nyquil. haha it knocked me the fuck out. i woke up this morning fucking scared i missed class, but it was only 7:30. i am developing quite a cold. i hate this. everyone in my class was getting sick except me, now its caught up with me. oh well, an excuse to get more pho lol. went to Pho Lemongrass last night, so so good lol. i missed Brians but it was alright as i got some studying done. now i have to cram a lab report, study for Chem exam on monday and a Bio midterm on wednesday. crap there goes the weekend.

see you guys in moval

Handguns and second chances

so this is the only week i haven't felt pressed for time. i know exactly what benh is talking about in her latest blog. i've been on top of my shit finally. finally started to pick up my slack, getting myself out of the rut i was in. sun shining and all that good shit. im a little sad i can't go to Brians tonight cause i need to study. sad but im happy im actually going to go study. crazy. i was trying to write this earlier when i got to school but it started to sprinkle and i had to get inside. lol

whistler is getting closer and closer. i can feel the exciting starting to build. being in snow, actually real snow, none of this man made shit. and they got cafes in canada. not coffee cafes if you know what i mean

bury your head

pretty productive day. all caught up with math hw. did a lot of my chem lab report. i even finished the graphs for my next lab after this current one is due. its getting cold right now and im getting psyched. winter is slowing making her damn way here. well whatevers cause i'll be in OR and Canada during winter. i was making my schedule for spring. what a hectic semester thats going to be. crazy. but you know, i can't wait for the challenge.

this week is going nicely, plus i got buy one get one free for lights so im pretty happy about that. haha

the difference between medicine and poison is in the dosage

its early and its foggy at school. just got done with chem hw and reading. i don't feel like walking back to my car to get my bio lab notebook to do all my lab reports. procrastination sucks big ones. oh well its what i deserve. damn talking to jan about whistler gets me all hyped. im glad he is going. another one of my bros are coming. ME TER LINK JAN ROM. jan takes care of all angles in the "just in case" theories, which is always good. rommel isn't allowed to drive, we are trying to get up there. lol. more details in later blogs for sure. ttyl time to go to class.

this week is going to be so stressful, 2 lab reports, 2 midterms next monday. lots of hw. but i have a feeling its going to be an amazing week. i'll make it an amazing week.

PS HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH D!

cold cash and colder hearts

fun ass weekend. actually really chill. we jumped jan into our whistler group. he put up a fight but link held him down. its going to me so much fun. im looking at hotels and shit right now. just hanging out with mountain view with jeff and lainie is perfectly fine with me. PANTHERS! we grow closer and closer all the time and im happy who is there. had some weak shit happen but thats all it was, bull. in the end "Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open arms and open eyes." and i do mean it. time to sleep cause i have to be up for school.

mentally preparing for this school week ahead of me.

long weekend

chilled at Cs place last night, i haven't been there in a while. went to steph's day.not a drop of alcohol for me.lol. it was really chill. literally. i was freezing all night, haha thats what i get for wearing a thin ass v-neck sweater. hung out with good people. haha ended up playing horse. good fun. drove all the way deeper into perris for dennys that we didn't even end up eating. until next weekend.

2 six shooters to be exact

what a night last night. just good fun. good fucking company. BJs was lots then sitting at jans doing shit was lots. seriously. when you got good friends, doing nothing can be lots of fun.

today is nothing but studying. hopefully something good happens

stare at the sun

once again i am delaying my homework. i actually need to vent, and since everyone is either asleep or fucking 50 miles away, blogspot is my only escape right now. that and some lights. on a happy note, another successful Brians. ate some Jacks and let me tell you the breakfast jack hits the spot.

now the steam. damn i feel like im constantly running out of time. i have no real deadlines with anything yet i feel pressed for time. i am ok with time management but its a fucked up feeling. i feel like i don't wake up early enough even though today i don't have class till 11. i feel like i sleep too much, which sometimes i do. maybe i should just do speed. jk. lets see how this week ends.

also flooded with emotions and theres no way to get them out

is it worth it?

one last thing that just came into my head. why does it seem like i am always fighting for what i want. i know nothing is ever handed to you but fuck why is it so difficult. i am constantly fighting for xxx and yyy and zzz. is it worth fighting for? i have no idea. why do i fight? i have no clue either. i guess it is true that the best things in life are worth fighting for, but i won't know if its worth it until i get it. i hope its worth it. all this effort doesn't go to waste i hope. i can only hope right?

shitting out a lung

fuck i think i smoked too many cigs yesterday. my chest is fucking killing me. haha and i gotta go get another pack cause im all done. plus its BRIANS day so im forsure picking up a pack. whatever. its going to be a good day. i can feel it. no one fuck it up for me. haha. i wonder what we will do this weekend. my prediction: end up either at jeffs or links just kicking it. fine with me. talk about whistler and snowboarding all over again. haha.

to be continued, back to reading for bio

sleep

damn last night i went to sleep at 7 and i didn't wake up til 7 this morning. i feel good though. i didn't really sleep a lot last weekend so i guess i just needed to catch up on it. had a wild dream but can't tell if its a dream or an actual nightmare. whatevers theres no meaning behind anymore. i am at the library delaying my pre-cal homework. i actually can't wait til i head back to moval to go see my family, and friends ter rom link jeff lainie. need some good company around me. i don't see anyone else really so don't get offended. if you are there you are there.

back to school. its a love/hate relationship

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bio 172

sitting in class, talking to jeff and watching some dude next to me play metal slug. the girl on my left is sleeping. i'd be doing the same thing if it wasn't for my mac. we are talking about how cells are connected to eachother. fun shit. next i have lab for this class which should be just as fun.

sorry your fish are dying jeff. RIP for those who didn't make the struggle

itunes

haha some guy has his shared itune library as "no vaseline" haha.

at school

sitting at the tables with steph smoking a cig. shes drawing fruits and im blogging. been here since 7:30. some clown is on a trombone and he sucks. what a long day its going to be. glad i brought the mac to school haha.

hard

running blogs is hard work. plural.

weekend

what a weekend. 2-4 hours of sleep everynight to wake up at 4am to go work at the dshop. I don't know how my mom does it everyday, its crazy. I got so many comments saying how much i look like my mom, i lost count. haha. After work took a 2-3 hour nap haha. woke up an did nothing. Ter and I went to Nebraska, haha more like Riverside Plaza to eat. We watched a talent show thing for kids while i was eating. Girls like 10-15 were singing Fergie songs. it was wierd. spend hours at the bookstore. chilled with jeff and lainie. Link came along later haha. We all went to melissa's house for liz and renee's birthday party thing. stayed for like 20 minutes, it was cold as fuck. I notice that i spend my weekends with link ter and rommel. Totally fine with me, just good company. At times Jeff and Lainie will be there too. Usually sitting around doing shit but im with good people at least. now i am back in fullerton, preparing for the school week ahead of me.

results from streets

FUCK, im still hyped. i was super windy and cold as a mother but just awesome. One of the best times in my life. Vadd Tuoi Musky Jose Jessie Robert and myself had the time of our lives. Big ups to everyone who dragged knee. i couldn't get it, was too focused on trying to be smooth so i never tried to but my knee down. i did get low though. I had the pleasure of meeting some awesome people and really good instructors. We put on about 80miles of HARD track miles on our bikes today. Topped out 3rd gear, over 100 for sure since i taped up my speedometer i couldn't tell. Its an unexplainable feeling going 100+mph dropping in for a turn and slowing down to 50ish in a heart beat to get low to the ground. Its just an amazing feeling. Even though i wasn't the fastest in the class, I wasn't the slowest. It was really how i could progress through out the day, and i saw results. I am happy with myself and how i did. I am really considering making my bike strictly a track bike. Riding all out on the track is so much more fun and carefree than having to deal with all the obstacles on the road. we'll see how that goes though. super tired(only 2 hours of sleep) and super sore but so well worth it! i can't wait for the next one

Streets

fuck yeah in a few short hours, i'll be on my way to streets of willow, this time with my bike. had a blast in the mr2, now its on 2 wheels. I am super excited, like a kid going to disneyland, i can't sleep. haha. i hope i don't forget anything. long ass day of racing ahead of me. its going to kick so much ass

Brians

i would have posted this last night except i feel for Brian's trap. Good company once again, Marc and Migs. good talk about random shit. haha i hate you marc for making us drink HURRICANE HIGH GRAVITY....and for that picture haha. all good. woke up with that beer still lingering in my mouth, nasty. i cant wait til next week

what a day.

long day at school. steph saved my life when she came to school early. haha we walked around the entire campus talking shit. what we do best.

its BRIANS DAY!

cool kids

hung out with my classmates since we finished our lab last week. dollar tacos and dollar beers. pretty fun. different group than i usually hang out with but fuck it, it was chill. diversity right

Pumpkin Ale

Once again i find myself drinking with marc on a random night. We decided to get Blue Moon Pumpkin Ale, just to try something new. not too bad except a strong after taste. We watched Knocked Up with mikey except he crashed early. fuck it was all good until the end where the baby was coming out. I honestly didn't think i'd see that until my future wife or whoever was having a baby. destroyed my beer appetite. haha

long ass day at school. shit happened. the usual. HAHA during lab, my partner threatened me that she was going to give me a tear drop with an inoculating needle haha. then we went to eat after lab @ paneras, which was really good.

goodnight

p.s. im sore as fuck still and my forearm is straight up purple haha

blind in the ear

CHIODOS! It nothing but greatness. Ter and i had the time of our lives! There was not one disappointment at all. All of the opening bands were great. We had cigs after each band. We met some funny ass kids who were drunk. haha. The Devil Wears Prada and Alesana rocked. Chiodos finally came on and it was fucking great. We rocked so hard we didn't care if we were in peoples' space. Lost our voices, lost our hearing but all worth it. I crowd surfed the last song and i got to shake Craig's hand. HIS FUCKING HAND! I don'care if it sounds gay, it was amazing. Also shook the guys on keys but i don't know his name. Ter found me at the last moment for the last song haha, we got separated with the crowd but still had an awesome time. It was just amazing thats all i can say. Glasshouse is my new favorite venue.

Ter and I are planning to go to at least 1 concert a month. Anyone is welcome to join us as long as you can fucking rock, i mean get down like theres no tomorrow.

Next up : Chiodos again with Scary Kids Scaring Kids. Then Circa Survive!